Sunday, September 14, 2008
coursework is killing me.
i have spent almost every single day in school for the past 16 days.
and im not talking about 2 hours. its more like, 12 hours in school.
stayed over in school on fri.
im sick today. very sick.
and i didnt do a single thing for coursework at all.
and my prepboards are due on tue.
and i only have 6 weeks left till As.
its so not worth it, you know, the time i spend on coursework.
can you imagine studying 16 days, 12 hours straight for econs?
i can gurantee an A.
or for any other subject for that matter.
no time no time no time.
16 days for each subject, ill finish studying AFTER the A levels.
sigh.
jun published at 9/14/2008 07:40:00 PM
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
this is another bitchy post.
studying makes me bitchy. =)
i was at Han's today, (studying)
and i saw this woman who was such a HUGE fashion disaster!!!
seriously huge huge HUGEEE fashion disaster.
its not like i dress well but at least im not so omg.
just picture this:
an extremely plump woman,
in a faint yellow top with a fairy pink skirt.
EXTREMELY short skirt.
so so so short.
can see her thunder calves.
and so plump.
i mean, even plump woman can look gorgeous when they dress well!
pair it all off with a pair of nike running shoes and uncombed long hair.
OMG.
her whole silhouette just stayed so vividly in my mind, its revolting.
i stopped eating my fish and chips, and im totally not exaggerating.
maybe art makes me too critical of the aesthetic value in things sometimes.
i had this sudden illusion that ill grow that fat and senseless one of these days. (which i may actually)
made me wanna troop off to London to study fashion design.
so much for accepting people for who they are.
lol.
jun published at 9/09/2008 11:10:00 PM
Friday, September 05, 2008
choices.
i think studying is a very self reflecting thing.
the past few weeks ive been wondering what ive been studying for.
i love gp lessons. there was once in class, just recently, where my gp tutor asked what we were studying for. it went something like that. (its pretty amazing how i can remember gp, geog and art lessons so vividly while i am totally clueless of what goes on in math or econs lessons the minute i step out of class)
us : but we have no choice.
her: really?
us: yea. we need to get our As.
her: so why do you need to get As? is it necessary?
us. yea. we need to get into good universities.
her: really? and do you have to get into good universities?
us: of course. a good degree will ensure us a good future.
her: and what is a good future?
us: (mixed responses) helping others, material well being, stable jobs, good family relationships...we cannot slow down. once we do, we will drop out of the race.
her: do you need to stay on top of the race?
us: yes. once we slow down, we will no longer be able to catch up.
her: and why do you need to catch up? why do you have to be at the top? you choose to be at the top. you can choose not to lead luxurious lives, you can choose not to study so hard, you can choose to be satisfied with a couple of Bs,
you always have a choice.
that lesson got me really confused actually.
i love lessons where i actually need to think and reflect on things.
so maybe there really issnt a need to be brilliant.
no need to be the top 5 %.
no need to be in some prestigious university.
no need to earn big bucks.
but right now, all i know is i need to study hard for A levels.
get it over and down with.
and ill think about it.
somemore.
jun published at 9/05/2008 11:37:00 PM
sometimes, its so tedious to talk to some people.
they are just so. strict. unresponsive. and downright boring.
i feel like a dumb blonde when i talk to them.
i die trying to think of things to say to them.
sounds damn bitchy, but i bet you feel the same about some people too.
jun published at 9/05/2008 10:54:00 PM